recently i had a huge wake up call for me and you could call it an epiphany. i love epiphanys! they smack you in the face and wake you up! it’s what Oprah calls your aha moment. well i had one! what has been a trialling week where i have been disappointed in other people’s actions i took away a lesson out of it.
with it came a whole range of emotions, disappointment, anger and self-doubt. while it hurt and it was a release it cleared the way to show me that i do not need other people to validate me or my worth. it showed me that i have been giving away my power.
i realised once again that i choose (yes me) my thoughts and emotions and how i want to feel. today i took back my power and said to myself ‘hey you rock girl, no-one knows the infinite potential that you have inside of you and guess what you are in control of it so go out and amaze and dazzle the world with your sparkle.’
it motivated me to rock out my sparkly clothes just to remind me that i refuse to let other people get me down and i lose my sparkle! this realisation was so empowering. especially after the doubt filled couple of days.
fast forward a fortnight later… if the first smack in the face didn’t hurt enough to wake me up… well I got another one…! lets just say the weekend started with a few ugly words that hit me. while I thought that what had been said to me was completely uncalled for and untrue it still hit me hard!
the words “you’re all thoughts and no action” and “you are better without your spirituality” came as a heavy blow and I once again questioned my worth but also my values.
while I stewed on the words for a day i thought fuck this… this is my lesson again to not put my value in other people’s opinions or words.
‘all thoughts and no action’ is not something I would’ve ever described myself as. while i have nothing to prove to that person and everything to prove to myself that i am not that person it fuels me to make butterfly heart the most amazing experience for people and to help lift people’s spirits in ways that makes them feel fulfilled and happy.
today i am ready to take on the world. i am looking forward to the future and the amazing, endless possibilities, opportunities and experiences that lay ahead. i am feeling fulfilled knowing that i am in charge of my own life and how i respond to things. i am also happy knowing that the best is yet to come…